the Order of Chaos

I know this fatigue is always with you even when you are having a rest. Seems like we have been living our lives as if it is a long-life term of imprisonment, like everything is just about to change and a new life will begin so that one would be able to enjoy it all the way. But for some reason all these long expected benefits and fun are in the future…always!!! And as we all know but are afraid to confess to ourselves it will never come. Tomorrow never die. However the saying says never say never…

Oftenly we demand from this world what is allegedly is due to everyone of us. In reply it is indifferently turning away. Most wise advisers out there tell us the world is a hard nut to crack and we need to conquer that. Than we try to struggle with the world straining to the utmost and eventually fail. Those “smart” advisers got the answer for that question either: you are not good enough so go change yourself first and than ask something from the world.

We used to complain not everyone is born in luxury and neither anyone can choose his or her fate. But why we forgot we all have a right to make a choice. The problem here is no one understands what it actually means to be able to choose.

Everyone can get his freedom to choose whatever s/he wants. The big puzzle is how to gain that freaking freedom.

Some have everything in abundance some are always in need. Someone gets anything easy some is hopelessly busy as a bee. One is given a beauty , a beautiful mind and power and another is devoid of all this necessary stuff. Why is that flagrant injustice. Why some group of people are restrained in their ability to be happy as if they are all guilty of something and if one decides to trust in a predetermination of our lives the only relief would be in a humility then.

On the other hand someone can come up with a solution to enjoy the life to the full extent and start doing so. But in the meantime it is somehow awkward to meet a stern reality with a stupid smile on your face. Don’t your dare something bigger? Why you must make yourself feel fun. I mean it is like forcing yourself to fall in love.

There is always some gurus around telling we all should forgive and love each other. One can believe in this and accept that illusion inside in order to escape from the reality and it really helps ..temporarily. Deep inside his soul the man can still not make himself forgive those whom he hates and love those whom he is cold to. So what is the point? It turns out to be a forced happiness rather than natural one. It is like you have to squeeze out the joy from yourself as you do it with the tube getting a toothpaste.

A lot of instructive tales tell us about the heroes who had been fightening and working all days long overcoming every single barrier on their way. So doing that way only one can take his place in the sun.

What a bitter pill to swallow is the need to struggle with this world and get what you want so-o-o much. But what if the world fails to be amenable for you. Does it necessarily mean you have to change yourself? If you so poor, sick, ugly and unhappy – does it mean you are to blame for that. You are imperfect therefore you must change. The man is told the fact s/he is originally a collection of drawbacks and defects he has to be constantly working on. Sad picture isn’t it? If you happened to be born poor and unhappy than your destiny would be either to submissively bear your own cross or to devote your entire life to the desperate struggle.

Yet there is a way out. It is as much simple as pleasing and unlike those mentioned above since it lays in a completely different way of thinking.